Make Time for Yourself

I can’t tell y’all how many times I’ve attempted to write a blog. How many paragraphs or titles are in my phone. How many times I’ve planned or talked about it. Between a storm, a blessing, and a schedule so full the boxes on the calendar are too small, I just…couldn’t do it.

See in order for me to creatively express my wisdom and knowledge through words, my mind has to be clear. I have to hear from God before my fingers flow on a keyboard. Yes, I can journal every day but that’s simply the release of my thoughts. My blog has to have a message. It has to help somebody. Otherwise I’d just be ranting (and I save that for Snapchat). Even in fasting from social media all summer, I couldn’t blog. Mostly because I wanted to stay away from technology.

In the past few months, I’ve taken in a teenager and a toddler (ultimately giving up my peace of mind and intimate space), been blessed with a new office for The Troubled Movement, watch my baby grow, spent time with my teens, had a few anxiety attacks, witnessed a couple babies enter the world, and a mile-long list of things that didn’t include doing something for myself.

I ended up in my office on this early Sunday evening, after a long Sunday nap, writing this blog because I needed a moment alone. I needed to not only talk to God in peace, but also do the one thing that makes me the happiest. I had to write. I had to spend time with my thoughts. My birthday is in 11 days and I have no plans, other than sleeping. What kind of life is that?

I have a surprise coming soon that will help you understand who I am and why I am who I am, but…you have to wait. Until then I will tell you this…

MAKE TIME FOR YOURSELF! (I really said it like, “MAKE TIME FA YOSELF!”)

Even Jesus slept. It’s a raging storm in the sea with panicking disciples while Jesus is resting his precious life away. You know what I get from this bible story (Mark 4: 35-41)? One, I realize that God put on human flesh and came DOWN to Earth to experience life as we do.  God knows what you’re going through because His Son went through it. Two, even in the midst of a storm you can find rest. You can’t calm the storm yourself Queens and Kings. Pray about that raging rain and take yo a*s to bed!

I know I need to take better care of myself. Especially now more than ever. I’m terrible at it, I’ll admit. I’m quick to fast from social media or cut off my phone so I CAN ACTUALLY THINK, but the rest of me needs some work. I have to come to the conclusion that I can’t save everybody, and I can’t do everything.

Neither can you…

You are most important in your life. If you don’t take time to care about yourself and do things for yourself then you are no good to anyone else. Totally just had Déjà vu…did I say this before? Probably. Now it’s time to listen to my own advice.

Oh! And of course blog more. 😊